Love Grace

I have hidden in a dark corner where the shadows never move and light never shines and I wonder why my eyes have gone blind. I look around and see nothing, but I stay where I am for fear of finding out that I have wasted all my life in Limbo when all the while I've held the keys in my hand. I have come to realize I am overlooking a vast ocean of despair where I am alone in a cave and my voice is still there but I have forgotten how to speak. Sometimes I see boats floating by. I see them but they cannot see me and to ask for help is unthinkable. I see darkness through clouded dreams and I long for something more.

     There are those moments when I see the pictures of past memories and I remember what I used to have. I miss those days and I want them back. I yearn to be back where I was those days. I long to linger in that presence and just enjoy the sun upon my eyelashes and the breeze fresh against my skin. It stings me to the heart and I have a knot within my throat. Tears swell up behind my eyeballs and I sigh within my soul. That is what I see when I look back, but as I sit here, considering the present, I sigh again. Even though my heart is heavy and troubles surround me, even though I often sink to my knees in apparent despair, I find that I am alright. I feel around with my palms and I touch the ground; it does not move and it does not fall apart. I see the faces of those around me and I smile. I think of the troubles, but I also think of the joys. I don’t regret being here, I don’t regret leaving what I left, but I also don’t forget what I have gained. Oh, the memories. O, the pains,